I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Tune of Enjoy and Development or judgments of the ego based on everything you look for (agree with) in the mind. There’s number other way. In the Program, the mind (content) is separate between God and the confidence; and you are selecting constantly with an area as reason for effect.
Forms (all things of the world) are miscreations highlighting the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve made it up (miscreated that world) and can give it up any time by improving your head (forgiveness). Correct prayer needs this modification of your brain as Lord has nothing related to forms.
What Prayer is Not:
When you are usually deciding, that which you look for once you wish is what counts. Once you plead in prayer to possess God correct a questionnaire problem with another sort issue, you are asking the ego brain for help (not God). These types and needs are deemed more crucial than God’s Love that will stay concealed to the degree you choose the illusion.
All external things (forms) are needs. Other brands are wants, dreams, status, issues, vomiting, individual enjoy (special relationships), presents and targets in this world, etc. They are what you pick as substitutes for God’s Love and the confidence can overlook the purpose of prayer by with them to help expand the illusion. Thus, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.