I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo initially in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I would be doing so for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to talk about was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have enable you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I possibly could not consider something that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere having its residents’satisfaction, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.
You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.